At the end of 2015, my friend Dana messaged me about an idea she had for a series based on a scrapbook she had made when her children were younger. I knew it immediately something I wanted to be a part of. I saw it as a way to reflect on my own life and what I wanted Eve (and any future children) to know about as the person beyond her mom. A woman with her own childhood and silly quirks and interests.
This is the final of the “Who I Am project. This month the prompt is “Dreams fulfilled and wishes for the future. ” Like my previous posts, I wrote this as if I were speaking to Eve (and any other children I have in the future). Thank you to Dana for dreaming up this series and giving me the opportunity to share Who I Am.
One of my greatest challenges in life is being fully immersed in the present moment. My senior year of high school, my English teacher, Mr. Kaplow, even wrote that I often live in the present and the past.
As a mom, I work hard every day to be present with you. But for today, I am going to take you on one last journey to my past and my future, sharing with you my dreams that have been fulfilled thus far in life and my hopes, both as your mom and as a person, for the future.
My childhood dreams fulfilled
Unfortunately, I don’t have a record from my childhood of what I really wanted for myself in the future, but I do know of a few things that I wanted that came true:
Study abroad — While I had imagined I would spend a year abroad in Israel like Nana, I can’t complain about a semester studying in Madrid and visiting friends in France, England, and Italy. I look so fondly back on this time. It improved my Spanish, showed me that I wanted to live in a city, gave me a sense of independence that I had never experienced, and made me appreciate life at home that much more.
Become a mommy doctor — half of them dream has been fulfilled, the other I never anticipate will and I’m TOTALLY fine with never becoming a doctor
Spend my time being creative
Be less shy — It’s still a work in progress, but I no longer have a fear of speaking in public and introducing myself to new people. (Well, mostly)
Have a boyfriend — I was a late bloomer and worried this would never happen. While I realize the pain that comes with having your heartbroken, I also know the joy that comes with being in love and finding a life partner
My adulthood dreams fulfilled
Move to a city — At some point my senior year of college I got this idea in my head to move to Boston. Twelve years later and I’m still here and am so thankful I made that decision (except, perhaps, when it’s the dead of winter and I’m shoveling the car out for the 15th thime that year).
Travel in the US and abroad — Though I would have never imagined quitting my job to backpack around South America for five months, I value this time I had with Papa and all of the trips we have taken together so far. Traveling is so important to me, and I feel fortunate to have the opportunities I have had so far.
Write a book — I realized around the time I found out I was pregnant with you this was a goal of mine
Own a home — our condo may not be our forever home, but it’s so nice to have a place to call our own
Have a fulfilling career — I have times when I want to call it quits, but overall I could not be happier with the path my work has led me thus far. Every day is an opportunity for me to nerd out and learn new skills AND be creative, all while being a stay-at-home mom. It’s challenging at times, but I often feel so amazed that I get to live this life.
Go to graduate school — It was the most 10 months of my life but it was so worth it. I don’t regret it for a moment, even if I’m still paying for it almost a decade later!
My wishes for the future
Add another child to our family — I’ve always known I wanted (at least) two children, and I do hope one day to give you a little brother or sister
Revisit places I have traveled to in the past — especially Spain
Continue to travel with my family, both in the U.S. and abroad — Disney World is high up on my family travel bucket list
Stop yelling — It’s something I work on every day. Some days are better than others.
Open a community space — Particularly one that is geared toward moms
Try out for the Vagina Monologues — it’s something I wanted over three years ago and I found myself writing about that again just the other day!
Instill in you certain values that I feel are important — Giving back to the community, a sense of Jewish identity, an openness to learning about the world and people around you, love for family and friends, a strong sense of morality
A life fulfilled for you — My parents steered me in an excellent direction and have helped me arrive at where I am today, and I hope to do the same for you
The “Who I Am” project is a year-long monthly series that my friend Dana at Kiss My List started as a way to create a virtual scrapbook of your life to tell your kids, grandkids, spouse, friends, or whoever who you are. You can link up our posts, which goes live the third Tuesday of the month, on either of our blogs, and sign up to receive the prompts at the beginning of each month via e-mail. The themes so far have been Childhood, Love, Quirks & Habits, How you’ve changed since you were a child, Favorite Places, Betcha Didn’t Know, Things I Love, Education, Traditions, and Medicine for My Soul.
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