As a two-year-old, right now your world revolves around you.
Your growing brain isn’t quite wired yet to see that as your Mama I have my own interests and desires beyond your small but growing world.
When you are young, it can be hard to imagine your parents as people outside of being the people who love and care for you. What you know about me is what you see on the surface: that I enjoy reading to you (granted, I may not always want to read you Curious George), I have brown hair and brown eyes, I make jewelry and spend a lot of time on my computer, and apparently I go to a lot of meetings.
As you get bigger, you will learn that I am more than just your Mama.
I’m Bev: a wife, friend, daughter, sister, niece. A jewelry designer and blogger and creative entrepreneur. And yes, your Mama.
But the person you know is more than just what you see on the surface. I have a history, one that spans more than 30 years before you came into my life. As you grow older, I hope to share more about this history, the person that exists beyond what you see and experience.
I once thought I wanted to be a doctor. Specifically a Mommy Doctor.
I used to have epic tantrums when I was little. I’m talking 45 minutes of screaming from my bedroom until my throat started to hurt. And I once had a tantrum over a diaper when Nana and Grandpa were trying to toilet train me.
Like you I was a cautious child. I learned to ride a two-wheeler when I was about five or six, long after my best friend; and I didn’t learn to dive in the swimming pool until the summer before 3rd grade, when Nana and Grandpa told me I had to join the swim team.
My biggest regret in life is that I lost my flexibility. Seriously. In 4th grade I was the only girl in my grade who wasn’t a gymnast who could do a full side straddle and put my stomach on the ground. Probably because I didn’t do gymnastics no one told you had to keep at it or you’d lose your flexibility, which I did that summer. It’s a somewhat silly regret, but if that’s my biggest one, than I’d say I’ve had a pretty good life.
I also imagined I would study abroad in Israel like Nana had done in college. It wasn’t until I was in college that I decided to stuy in Israel.
I have never once in my life pulled an all-nighter. Let’s hope that you inherited my study skills.
I started my life here in Boston because of Nana’s childhood stories growing up in Brookline. And by coincidence my first apartment when I moved here was around the corner from Nana’s house when she was little.
I spent most of my 20s thinking I wanted to work in the realm of education and I actually contemplated getting a PhD in psychology. It’s ok if in your 30s you still aren’t entirely sure what you want to do with your life!
Until Papa asked me to leave our jobs to go backpack around South America after we got married, the thought never had crossed my mind. I’ve always been a planner, and to not know what was coming next had typically been a source of anxiety for me. (I’m still learning to go with the flow and enjoy the moment.)
I always knew I wanted to be a mom one day, but as the time got closer to think about having kids I freaked out a little bit. As soon as I was pregnant with you, though, those fears thankfully went away.
This is month six of the “Who I Am” project. This month the prompt is “Betcha Didn’t Know” and like my previous posts, I wrote this as if I were speaking to Eve (and any other children I have in the future).
The “Who I Am” project is a year-long monthly series that my friend Dana at Kiss My List started, as a way to create a virtual scrapbook of your life to tell your kids, grandkids, spouse, friends, or whoever who you are. You can link up our posts, which goes live the third Tuesday of the month, on either of our blogs, and sign up to receive the prompts at the beginning of each month via e-mail. The themes so far have been Childhood, Love, and Quirks & Habits, How you’ve changed since you were a child, and Favorite Places.
What don’t people know about you?